Routines and Traditions

I don't have anyone to talk to, and my friend Re said it wasn't obnoxious even to post every day in a blog, so you guys get to hear more about my eccentricities. (TOO BAD!)

So, one of my plans for Easter, because I absolutely love doing Easter Egg Hunts, was to put a bunch of mini egg inside a hollow Easter egg shell, duct taping it up, and sticking a bunch of them in the living room for the cats to play with. Come morning, I'd have to hunt them all down, and it would be my Easter Egg Hunt!

...But, I forgot to go to Dollarama yesterday to pick up the hollow eggs, so now I'm sitting on my couch feeling mopey.

My family moved around a lot when I was younger, and we never really slacked from family traditions. It was the only solid thing in my life. What with my OCD tendencies, I really need the rituals and routines that come from certain holidays, or I emotionally feel stressed and panicked the entire time.

This Christmas I spent my time with my boyfriend and his family. Normally, I would put up the tree and decorations while my parents would watch, we'd all open one present under the tree, then drink and talk about silly stories while crappy Christmas music played in the background.

This Christmas, we opened all the presents on Christmas Eve, then ate chips and nacho dip, while watching the remake of "Total Recall". I'm not going to lie, the lack of the normal routine made me feel jittery and off, so I started drinking faster than normal. By the end of the night, I was drunk.

I still really enjoyed myself, but it got me thinking...

One of the things that I really look forward to doing with my own family is making my own little family rituals and traditions with them.

I guess that's why I feel mopey now. I don't really have a family. I'm too old to still do everything with my parents, and I'm too young to have started my own family yet. I mean, hey, if I was really all that concerned, I suppose I could have just stayed with my ex and been married and had a kid by now (he had a tendency to push his own agenda) but I don't think that would have solved the problem.

I guess what I'm trying to express is, in between that time where you are no longer close with your parents, and before you find who is your family for the rest of your life, where are you?

I can't really see myself just spending about ten or so years alone, for every holiday.

So... what do you all think? (Comment below.)