Enjoy. (Or Not.)

I'm re-visiting blogging.

I'm also currently laughing myself silly, because I'm being the epitome of pretentious.

I am blogging, at a cafe, using the city's wifi, drinking a decaf soy chocolate chai tea latte.

Ugh, I hate myself a little now.

So, I'm currently where I am because I am too cheap to get internet for my apartment, I wanted to pick up hot chocolate mix because I ran out yesterday, and I was just so damn tired of being mopey at home.

I am mopey, because I am feeling overworked, underpaid, and under-appreciated throughout the entire state of my life right now. My job helps me to support myself, my volunteer work stimulates my intellectual side, but for all intents and purposes, I am in a rut.

I want out.

There was this comic a friend showed me, of someone who had visual "monsters" following her around, reminding her of her problems. They were red and green. The green monster represented the lack of monetary stability, and the red monster represented the lack of meaning in her life.

I'm very keenly wondering; "Oh God, what am I doing with my life?"

Well, right now, I work, I hang out with friends, I keep my apartment in order, I do volunteer work. But I don't feel like I'm fully utilizing any of my abilities, and I'm worried that I'm relying too much on others to make me happy. The sad thing is, I know I am, and it makes me even unhappier.

I want to do something more. I'm beginning to wonder if that something more shouldn't just be me getting back into writing.

So, with this mopey, pretentious intro, I give you my thoughts, to the best of my ability, delivered in my signature quirky, sarcastic, snarky way.

Enjoy. (Or not.)